认识到自己的错误而恨自己

confluence, to converge, to join, to fuse, fusion

memoir

to collect, to compile, to converge

look_back, retrospect, recur, recollection, cut back, think back, echo, remember, reflect, recollect, recall, recapture, go back, flash_back, commemorate, retroject, retrace, flash back

彻底破坏或消灭